| Once we observe our inner senses, and
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| | I invite you to try this experiment
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| attain this perspective, we see the world
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| | yourself. The next time your
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| and ourselves very differently.
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| | consciousness is arrested by a strong
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| Addictions to substances, relationships,
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| | desire, particularly one you're unlikely
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| or thought patterns vanish, as we
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| | to fulfill, take a moment to turn your
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| reidentify ourselves correctly, not as
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| | attention inward. Notice the exact nature
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| our mind, with all its erratic and
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| | of the feeling. Notice how your thought
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| inconsistent thoughts, but as our
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| | process wants to draw you back into the
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| essence, our self, our soul, our pure
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| | same set of questions and judgments it
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| consciousness.
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| | has always repeated every time you've
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| There's a fairly recent story from my
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| | been in the same situation. Notice, as
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| life that I've come to call the "Angela's
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| | you try to quiet your mind, how strongly
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| butt story." It's a controversial tale,
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| | it's pulled back to the object of your
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| and its main character still doesn't
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| | desire and to thoughts like "Why can't I
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| understand the remarkable significance of
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| | have that? What's wrong with me? It's not
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| the experience as it applies to my life
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| | fair. Boy, I really want that ..."
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| and attitudes.
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| | Keep your attention upon the inner
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| As a typically shallow person of my
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| | sensations. Forget, as best you can, the
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| gender, I happened to take notice of a
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| | trigger, the object of your desire and
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| certain physical attribute of this female
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| | obsession, and become aware of what's
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| friend. It started innocently and
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| | going on inside of you. Here is what
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| unintentionally as I glimpsed her bending
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| | you'll notice.
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| over my colleague's desk while they
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| | As you quiet your mind and study your
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| spoke. At the time, she was wearing a
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| | sensations, you'll feel pain. Somewhere
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| pair of burgundy velvet pants that fit
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| | within you will be an ache, a sharpness,
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| like a glove. Inadvertently, I found
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| | something. As you continue to allow your
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| myself obsessing about her anatomical
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| | attention to focus on the sensation, it
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| perfection in that particular region.
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| | will begin to change. It will shift,
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| From there my mind began to wander into
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| | perhaps, to another part of your body. Or
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| areas better left unexplored, and this
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| | it will spread out. Or maybe it will
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| friend became an object of my lustful
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| | start to throb or tingle. Your mind will
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| fantasies.
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| | likely perceive this as a sign of danger
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| As a student of consciousness, it's my
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| | and will try to draw you out of your body
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| commitment to witness all thoughts and
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| | and back into the inquiry. But fight that
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| feelings that command my attention and to
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| | urge. Stay with the feelings. They won't
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| become aware when my mind is trapped by a
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| | harm you, and, if you wait long enough,
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| particular thought loop. This obsession
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| | they will disappear.
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| with Angela's derrière required some
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| | This process of studying our sensation is
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| exploration on my part.
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| | how we overcome addictions. We weather
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| I decided to dedicate the better half of
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| | the storm, but it's not just that. We
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| a road trip alone not to replaying the
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| | also bring awareness and equanimity to
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| desired imagery but to noticing the
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| | the process. That feeling which used to
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| thoughts and feelings of lust the imagery
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| | own us and direct our thoughts is now
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| had evoked.
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| | just a harmless, passing set of
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| As I sat quietly, calming my mind and
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| | sensations. We experience freedom from
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| directing my attention inward, I found
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| | our addictions, and we find that feeling
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| that my body hurt. There was tightness in
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| | of freedom is far superior to any
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| my chest, heaviness in my throat, and an
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| | imagined happiness that we might
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| ache in my belly. My thoughts revolved
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| | experience as a result of getting the
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| around the degree to which I wanted
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| | object of our desire.
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| something I couldn't have. Then my
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| | My sense of incompleteness, and the
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| thoughts spun off, reminding me of all my
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| | square yard of flesh that caused it were
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| feelings of inadequacy as result of "not
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| | part of a complex program, a belief
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| getting the girl."
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| | structure, which I unwittingly imbibed as
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| Further reflection brought to light the
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| | a child or adolescent, kept in place by
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| recognition that this was the set of
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| | my subservience to my own feelings. In
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| thoughts and feelings that I'd
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| | essence, it was hypnotized into me,
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| experienced all my life from focusing on
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| | either by others or by myself. As long as
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| the physical desirability of women. Yet,
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| | I allowed the script to keep playing, I
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| I continued to seek out this experience.
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| | would remain forever hypnotized. Every
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| Why?
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| | time I would feel the feelings, I'd think
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| Could it be that I was suffering under
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| | the thoughts which would perpetuate the
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| the effect of an addiction? Could it be
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| | feelings which would enhance the
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| that part of the quality of addiction is
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| | thoughts, etcetera, etcetera ... By
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| its power to create a sense of
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| | choosing observation of my inner senses
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| incompleteness, and then propose a
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| | and allowing any waves to pass without
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| solution, the completion of which might
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| | reaction, I unhypnotized myself, and I
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| make us feel satisfied?
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| | gained a measure of freedom.
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| I've shared this realization with many
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| | Once we've begun to use these tools, and
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| people, and I've invited them to notice
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| | to attain this perspective, we see the
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| what their longings really feel like.
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| | world and ourselves very differently.
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| Inevitably, everyone tells me that they
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| | Addictions to substances, relationships,
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| discover the same thing. Whether they're
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| | or thought patterns vanish, as we
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| longing for love, sex, a relationship, or
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| | reidentify ourselves correctly, not as
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| a new pair of Banana Republic jeans, they
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| | our mind, with all its erratic and
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| all find that the focus on that thing has
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| | inconsistent thoughts, but as our
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| an addictive, obsessive, painful quality
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| | essence, our self, our soul, our pure
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| ... yet they can't seem to stop thinking
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| | consciousness.
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| about it.
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